Push, Pusher, Pushing

All Time Leading Rusher

Wow! Do you ever have those days, weeks sometimes months where nothing seems to be flowing. You forget your lunch , you miss every light on the way home in the car, what you say gets misinterpreted. It just might seem like someone or something is after you. Something just might be! It could be the good ole universe! I've talked in post blog posts about how you can try as best as you can to ignore the calls of the universe but always remember it had a grand plan and it's way more stubborn than you. 

 (This is what I imagine when I say the word Universe!)

Often times when something hasn't gone my way in the past my first reaction was to push harder. That desire to push better, harder, stronger and faster is essentially rooted in the idea of fear and the lack of trust.

This is a big struggle for me to practice and put into action in my everyday life.

I have always been of the energetic variety. I run circles around most people in terms of what they accomplish in a day or maybe even an hour. The price that I have paid for this super duper amount of energy has always been a lack of focus, becoming overwhelmed super easily and a general lack of body/mind:spirit awarenes. I am all too willing to push aside tiredness in order to muscle way threw a conflict. 

When you ask or sometimes don't even ask just tell your body/mind/spirit that it has to work at maximum force and effort it develops the ability to no longer trust it's surroundings. We or at the very least I become convinced that if I would just push harder that I can squeeze one more thing into my day or that I can fight my way through a conflict. 

One thing that I have been trying to just constantly play over and over in my mind like a mantra is that everything will get done in its perfect right time. No amount of rushing or fighting threw things is going to change that. 

Be Present and Above All Be Grateful for Each and Every Experience.